'm pretty sure college is just a metaphor for some awkward fruit, like guava. -Bernie O'Brien
It is not inertia alone that is responsible for human relationships repeating themselves from case to case, indescribably monotonous and unrenewed. It is shyness before any sort of new and unforseeable experience with which one does not think oneself able to cope, but only someone who is ready for everything, who excludes nothing, not even the most enigmatical, will live the relation to another as something alive.-Rilke
With him life was routine, without him life was unbearable. - To Kill A Mockingbird
"We're all terrified, but let's just live anyway."-Raul Esparza
“it is no surprise to me that hardly anyone tells the truth about how they feel. The smart ones keep themselves to themselves for good reason. Why would you want to tell anyone anything that’s dear to you? Even when you like them and want nothing more than to be closer than close to them? It’s so painful to be next to someone you feel strongly about and know you can’t say the things you want to.” — Henry Rollins
"Tell me everything; when you'll be out again, where you'll be at Christmas and that you think of me and love me... I don't want you for a day (though I'd sell my toes to see you now my dear, only for a minute, to kiss you once and make a funny face at you): a day is the length of a gnat's life: I want you for the lifetime of a big, mad animal, like an elephant." -Dylan Thomas
"Great art is about conflict and pain and guilt and longing and love disguised as sex, and sex disguised as love... " -Almost Famous
and as the awkwardness grew so did the obviousness of what was bound to happen from the start. the night ended with two touches of lips-Kurt Halsey
caitlin reed caitlin reed she's too cool for 7th grade
caitlin reed she's like one in a MILLION!
-Mark Jesse Swanson
"i wanna marry him and we'll have little theater babies." -nicole.
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
wasting time
2009 - thank god it's almost over...
ANSWER THE QUESTIONS:
Stayed single almost the whole year?
yes.
Done something you've regretted?
i try not to regret anything major i've done.
Lost someone?
yes (<3 RIP Spanky)
Cut class?
yup.
Were involved in something you'll never forget?
oh yes.
Visited a different country?
Nope, not in 2009.
Cooked a gross meal?
it's likely.
Lost something important to you?
yes.
Got a gift you adore?
Yes!
Tripped over a coffee table?
Most definitely.
Dyed your hair?
Nope!
Came close to losing your life?
Not that I know of.
Went to a party?
Several.
Read a great book?
Many.
Saw one of your favorite bands/artists live?
YES! Best birthday ever.
2009: Friends and Enemies
Did you meet any new friends this year?
Many.
Did you dislike anyone?
OH YEAH.
Did you grow apart from anyone?
Unfortunately, but it was inevitable I guess.
Do you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships?
Time management issues, plus the whole being in school while my friends are all out in the real world.
2009: Your BIRTHDAY!
Did you have a cake?
Nope. But I did get some sort of Stephen Starr dessert with a candle on top.
Did you have a party?
Nope. A concert.
Did you get any presents?
A hair cut, a pedicure, gift cards to the book store and mountain goats tickets.
Were you single?
Yes.
2009: All about YOU
Did you change at all this year?
Yes. It's impossible to stay completely the same, isn't it?
Did you change your style?
My clothes became more simplistic. Black leggings, white mens t-shirts, ballet flats/flipflop/boots.
Were you in school?
Yes.
Did you get good grades?
Good enough.
Did you drive?
Never!
Did you own a car?
No need.
Did anyone close to you give birth?
Not that I know of. Anyone wanna fess up?
Did you move at all?
Only for the summer.
Did you go on any vacations?
Nope.
Would you change anything about yourself now?
Always.
2009 WRAP UP:
Was 2009 a good year?
It was a year of really high highs and incredible lows.
When did things change for you if they did?
May 11, July 2, September 12.
Do you think 2010 will be better then 2009?
Yes. I hope so at least.
My best friends in 2009 were?
ACH. Family. 1414.
In 2009 I....
(x) stayed single for the whole year
( ) kissed in the snow
( ) celebrated Halloween
( ) had your heart broken
( ) mooned someone
( ) went over the minutes on your cell phone
( ) someone questioned your sexual orientation
( ) came out of the closet
( ) gotten pregnant
( ) had an abortion
(x) done something you've regretted
OTHER
( ) painted a picture
(x) wrote a poem
(x) ran a mile
( ) shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch
(x) posted a blog on MySpace
( ) visited a foreign country
(x) cut in a line of waiting people
(x) told someone you were busy when you weren't
(x) partied to celebrate the new year
(x) cooked a disastrous meal
( ) lied about how old you were
( ) prank called someone
In 2009 I also....
[x] broke a promise
[ ] fell out of love
[x] told a little white lie
[x] lied
[x] cried over a broken heart
[x] disappointed someone close
[x] hid a secret
[x] pretended to be happy
[x] slept under the stars
[ ] kept your new years resolution
[ ] forgot your new years resolution
[ ] met one of your idols
[x] changed your outlook on life.
[x] sat home all day doing nothing
[x] pretended to be sick
[ ] left the country
[ ] almost died
[x] given up on something/someone important to you
[x] lost something expensive
[x] learned something new about yourself
[x] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
[x] made a change in your life
[x] found out who your true friends were
[x] met great people
[x] stayed up til sunrise
[x] cried over the silliest thing
[x] had friends who were drifting away from you
[x] had a high cell phone bill
[x] spent most of your money on food
[ ] had a fist fight
[x] went to the beach with your best friend(s)
[x] gotten sick
HERE'S TO 2010 - IT'S GOTTA BE BETTER!
ANSWER THE QUESTIONS:
Stayed single almost the whole year?
yes.
Done something you've regretted?
i try not to regret anything major i've done.
Lost someone?
yes (<3 RIP Spanky)
Cut class?
yup.
Were involved in something you'll never forget?
oh yes.
Visited a different country?
Nope, not in 2009.
Cooked a gross meal?
it's likely.
Lost something important to you?
yes.
Got a gift you adore?
Yes!
Tripped over a coffee table?
Most definitely.
Dyed your hair?
Nope!
Came close to losing your life?
Not that I know of.
Went to a party?
Several.
Read a great book?
Many.
Saw one of your favorite bands/artists live?
YES! Best birthday ever.
2009: Friends and Enemies
Did you meet any new friends this year?
Many.
Did you dislike anyone?
OH YEAH.
Did you grow apart from anyone?
Unfortunately, but it was inevitable I guess.
Do you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships?
Time management issues, plus the whole being in school while my friends are all out in the real world.
2009: Your BIRTHDAY!
Did you have a cake?
Nope. But I did get some sort of Stephen Starr dessert with a candle on top.
Did you have a party?
Nope. A concert.
Did you get any presents?
A hair cut, a pedicure, gift cards to the book store and mountain goats tickets.
Were you single?
Yes.
2009: All about YOU
Did you change at all this year?
Yes. It's impossible to stay completely the same, isn't it?
Did you change your style?
My clothes became more simplistic. Black leggings, white mens t-shirts, ballet flats/flipflop/boots.
Were you in school?
Yes.
Did you get good grades?
Good enough.
Did you drive?
Never!
Did you own a car?
No need.
Did anyone close to you give birth?
Not that I know of. Anyone wanna fess up?
Did you move at all?
Only for the summer.
Did you go on any vacations?
Nope.
Would you change anything about yourself now?
Always.
2009 WRAP UP:
Was 2009 a good year?
It was a year of really high highs and incredible lows.
When did things change for you if they did?
May 11, July 2, September 12.
Do you think 2010 will be better then 2009?
Yes. I hope so at least.
My best friends in 2009 were?
ACH. Family. 1414.
In 2009 I....
(x) stayed single for the whole year
( ) kissed in the snow
( ) celebrated Halloween
( ) had your heart broken
( ) mooned someone
( ) went over the minutes on your cell phone
( ) someone questioned your sexual orientation
( ) came out of the closet
( ) gotten pregnant
( ) had an abortion
(x) done something you've regretted
OTHER
( ) painted a picture
(x) wrote a poem
(x) ran a mile
( ) shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch
(x) posted a blog on MySpace
( ) visited a foreign country
(x) cut in a line of waiting people
(x) told someone you were busy when you weren't
(x) partied to celebrate the new year
(x) cooked a disastrous meal
( ) lied about how old you were
( ) prank called someone
In 2009 I also....
[x] broke a promise
[ ] fell out of love
[x] told a little white lie
[x] lied
[x] cried over a broken heart
[x] disappointed someone close
[x] hid a secret
[x] pretended to be happy
[x] slept under the stars
[ ] kept your new years resolution
[ ] forgot your new years resolution
[ ] met one of your idols
[x] changed your outlook on life.
[x] sat home all day doing nothing
[x] pretended to be sick
[ ] left the country
[ ] almost died
[x] given up on something/someone important to you
[x] lost something expensive
[x] learned something new about yourself
[x] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
[x] made a change in your life
[x] found out who your true friends were
[x] met great people
[x] stayed up til sunrise
[x] cried over the silliest thing
[x] had friends who were drifting away from you
[x] had a high cell phone bill
[x] spent most of your money on food
[ ] had a fist fight
[x] went to the beach with your best friend(s)
[x] gotten sick
HERE'S TO 2010 - IT'S GOTTA BE BETTER!
Tuesday, December 08, 2009
oy. unnecessary drama. but whatever. i can't control it. i just want to put it out there, its my fault and no one elses. it was my choice, my invitation.
blah.
the last week of classes is upon us. i don't know what i am doing. tomorrow i have a case study due. i have no idea what to do about it. i am struggling. and i really kind of just want to go out to the bar tonight. but i won't i'm going to be good tonight and do ym work. and write my case puzzle and then work on my play and then figure out when i can maybe film for my documentary and then cry myself to sleep.
at least i ended up with 3 shifts at doc watsons this week. friday- day, saturday and sunday-night (first cut). it feels like it should be thursday already, not barely tuesday.
ugh.
blah.
the last week of classes is upon us. i don't know what i am doing. tomorrow i have a case study due. i have no idea what to do about it. i am struggling. and i really kind of just want to go out to the bar tonight. but i won't i'm going to be good tonight and do ym work. and write my case puzzle and then work on my play and then figure out when i can maybe film for my documentary and then cry myself to sleep.
at least i ended up with 3 shifts at doc watsons this week. friday- day, saturday and sunday-night (first cut). it feels like it should be thursday already, not barely tuesday.
ugh.
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