i should be asleep and yet...

quite obviously i am not. or since i am awake i should be working on my analysis of buying time.
and yet again- obivously i am not. i am here. on blogger whom i have neelected this past week.
it is now october (sick right?) time is going by so quickly. i feel like i never have time to do anything but school work.
which i know is completely untrue but it just sounds so dramatic i felt it necessary to say.
but honestly i have a ton of work. due within the next three days.
a costume design project due wednesday.
an anaylsis of buy time due thursday.
a survey of theater test on 4 units friday.
since when was art school supposed to be hard? honestly...
but i will get it all done.
the design project is pretty much complete. and my design is pretty kickass if you ask me.
I chose Dog Sees God as the play I was designing for and the specific character who i had to do rendering of is CB'c Sister (aka Sally from Peanuts) I chose her from the beginning of the play when she is in her goth phase.
My concept of her is very Gothic Lolita- a lot of black and red and a babydoll dress with a minitop hat. hot.

I cannot wait till this weekend.
FDU here I come.
I miss them all so much.
Like seriously that place was my life for two whole years.
ANd then to be cut off completely like this.
I haven't set foot on that campus since May, which may not seem like a long time
But for me to have not seen my friends since then- it seems like an eternity.
There is only so much catching up and bonding one can do over the phone and the internet.
Face to face is always better that facebook to facebook.

This past weekend I went to College Day on the Parkway. It was kinda eh- but everyone else came too.
And by everyone else I mean home friends.
It was Colleen, Feesh, Erin, Amy, Minkus and I. Reunitied and it feels so good.
But seriously it as so great to see them all.
If only the rest of the group could've made it.
But alas they could not so we made due and quite obviously survived...
Unless I'm writing this from beyond the graveeee (you can't hear it but that totally meant to be read in the creepy cliche voice used on tv for things like that. i swear it was funny in my head)

I am starting to feel bogged down under the weight of my responsibilities.
And they aren't even that many.
But I just have so much to do all the time.
Today I had class from 11:30-2:20, work study from 2:20-5-ish, and ballet from 5:30-7. and then i came back here and had my first meal of the day. it was not a wise move to go to ballet without eating anything. but i didn't get a break all day so thats what happens. tomorrow (or today at this point) will be better. 2 classes, one at 1 and one at 5:30. Costumes and Modern. And inbetween it will be filled with Buying Time analysis. ANd I will not be distracted by instant messenger or myspace (i'll use ichat and facebook instead! hah.)


it completely amazes me how much i can connect with a song or with a written piece. or with anything....
its inspiring really.

i've decided if i can find a collaborator.. somewhere. i'd really like to use this play i've started as my senior project.
i know thats atleast three years away but i started writing this and i feel really good about it, better than i did about the postsecret project which i loved with all my heart while i was doing it. the ostsecret project is the reason i'm here i think. amy actually laughed when she was reading some of the monologues, and looked thoughtful during others- and at the appropriate times. it was pretty sweet. i was so nervous about those... and then to hav eher approval of sort and then to get in here based on that and now to get my scholarship based on my prospective excellence... its a big vote of confidence from her and gene that i don't know that i truely deserve but i will gladly take with open arms, because i need it.
i have no confidence most of the time in my own work...

but what i'm writing right now...
i really like it.
and if i only had someone who could write music we'd be set.
i already have lyrics for two songs and additional scenes.
plus majority of the story mapped out.
and on paper- not just in my head!
how could i go about finding someone to work with.
i mean, its not like i go to a university with an entire schoolvof music attached...
wait a minute...